Thought of YOU

 

How Can I, 

Forget you, if you are

My First Crush,
My First Love.

How can I, 

Not in love with you?

When you make me awe, 

By seeing you beautiful eyes

Some says fallin' in love is the crazy things.

That happen to me when I saw you.

From you I learnt how to love.

How to keep low-key in love

Being in love with you is one of kind

As I bend to look at you as a man.

Years gone by, 

The worlds keep on moving

As the age is fly

Adoring you is continuing

Never regrets to have you in my dreams

You are my inspirations

Above of all

You made me stronger facing the world

Losing you, make my heart broken

In to pieces,

My world suddenly darken as never be

I can't seeing you vanished

But reminds me of you

I keep my love for you

Never be vanished nor

Disapear 

Here's the songs for You - make my life stronger 

and have faith of it. 

No one needs you more than I need you

You're the meaning in my life

You're the inspiration

You bring feeling to my life

You're the inspiration

When you love somebody

(Till the end of time)

When you love somebody

(Always on my mind)

No one needs you more than I

When you love somebody

(Till the end of time)

 

Broken-Hearted

 

Dear my Love Jason, 

As I write down this message, I still couldnt believe what happen to you. 

You make me feel shocks in deep and down here.

I never know this day is coming. Never did I know, You chose that kind of ways, to end up your life.

I didnt hold my tears.

I shaken my head, when I saw the news. It cant be true!

I thought you'd happy there. 

I thought you'd survived with your family there. 

why?

why?

why?

I just knew that you had divorced, already. 

And struggled with mental health issues and depression.    

  

I am so shocked, J !!!!

It has shocked and saddened me beyond belief. 

Despite of terribly losing you, I hope that you are in peace now. I hope you can meet your mom and brother, Eric. 

You left a hole in my heart, J!  But I will always love you.

REST IN PEACE and LOVE 

Jason David Frank (September 4, 1973 – November 19, 2022) was an American actor and martial artist. He was known for his role as Tommy Oliver in Mighty Morphin Power Rangers and other Power Rangers series.

NUMB

Do you know what numb is?

Numb, is when you can't feel about something. ( well, that's on my thought.)

I felt numb,
Because at first, I feel, I want it.

At first I really want it, 
Then I want to have it, 

Then, I am looking way to have it.
But then, because of the long time for the process.

Make me realize, It seems I had no rights to have it.
At first, you are on the mood. 
Then, something make me feel bad.

And all just gone, my heart feel numb for it.
Instantly, I cried. 

So bad, it's hurt me.
I convinced myself, maybe it isnt for me.

So, I should feel OK. Be patient. 

 

Maybe, I will have another one, in other day.

Finger crossed - for me! 

 

This is my story

...and suddenly, I forgot about what I want to write now.  



oh Well, I think 'bout my other-side brain. I like to write story and poems. Normally, I can write poems in sudden when I see or watch or experience something or even when I hear a song.
most of all, of course, bout my own life.

But then, bout the lads that I saw on K-Drama. 💓 err, dont forget to mention my first crush Jason David Frank.

Ok, let me start with these romance session, with some poems. 😉 ( I will post all my poems in this blog. And, Psst... its my secret to have this blog. Because I have my "ordinary" blog at My ordinary story) 
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*Feeling*

I can not hold back this feeling

I can not fight not loving you

Its the hardest thing I can do.

Let me show you what love can do.

God creates the moment

Then we take for a moment

When the eyes struck

The heart is beating fast

When you hold my hands

Your eyes looking deep into mine

And says we are sailing this life together.

Breathless.. If you leave me now

Because Our love so strong

Because you set me as the queen at your heart

Then I welcoming you in my life as the owner of my heart

I believe that you are mine

When you show me the way

Treats me as the sweetest one

You show me its true

Maybe now,

Until the time is through

I'll be here

You'll always hold my hand

And promise me to wipe always the tears.

Thats why I ❤ you.

- Insa-dong June 30/20

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Write this when I watched K-drama and I fallen love with the soundtrack from "This is my first life".

Song by : Haebin - Everyday. 

song by : MeloMance - I want to love you. 

You are my everything!

You are my lung to breath

You are my eyes

You are my hands

You are my hearts

You are my destiny

* Joseong-May 30.20 ( I have crush on Lee Min-Ki)

Even, I love all songs in the album from this Series. 💓

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Here are the list the K-drama OST that I love to sing along and like to hear it over and over (including rewatched the series) : 
1. Ost " Touch you Heart"

2. Ost "Touch your heart"
3. Ost "My love from the stars"
4. <3 Ost "This is my first life"  



Ok Thats all for now. 

xoxo, - A -

Dramatic.

Hi Gorgeous, 
We meet again today.
Why you ignoring my smile? 
Its hard for me to meet you.
Because I want to know you more.

I came here, because I knew you'd be here too.
As I stepped my feet in,
I already hear your happy laugh 
Oh I wish I can just jump and sit near you. 

Owh, dont you know my heart is beating fast, 
Just hearing your voice.
Even we separated by wall
But its a lil happy moment for me.

Deep down my heart, 
I wish, YES I WISH
We can talk have a chit chat like others to you. 
But my mouth is closed as my eyes looking at you. 

- water fountain, Feb 14.20-
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Hey you, yes YOU! 
Wow, You suprised me. 
Its really nice to see you there  
Dont you know, that I'm waiting here
For the moment. 

And I feel happy,
Seeing you standing infront of me
Makes My heart beating faster
But I didnt have any gut to look at you.

I wish, YES I WISH
You come to me
And start talk to each other
Asking me how am I doing.

When its time to go home
Time to say goodbyes to others
But I cant even saying goodbye to you. 
Just walking in front of you with my head down. 


- the Ponds 14 feb.20

Can't take my eyes

Song : Guilty - Blue

Actually,  Its been few weeks I'd like to share this one. How crazy in love, I am to these men. And do you know, what makes me fallen love? Yes, yes, their NOSE!, Their Pointed nose! 💖 its PERFECTLY MATCH with their EYES, SMILES.

And of course, many korean artist has it. But I've no idea, why my heart keeps struck when seeing these men/ watching their series.

God had created these beautiful human being. Thank YOU.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY Gorgeous!!! 💓💓💓💓

So Ji-Sub

Ji Chang- Wook

Good old songs and legendary singers / groups 🎶🎵🎤🎶🎤🎤

One of my favorite Boyband.
Yes, this is BackstreetBoys 😀😀😀
I "grew up" with this group, tho. It just nice to listen songs from their first album in cassette until now.
Nick and I have same age.. so thats why I can say I grew up with them. 😬😬😬 hahaha.
Then of course, I already seen their concert here in Jakarta few years ago.

One of soloist that I like. With his own voice character, that can make his songs sound good and deep feeling. Uhh I loveeee it! For me,with his voice all his songs are romantic. 🥰🥰 .
I Love his deep voice. Bryan Adams.

The other from my Teen-boyband idol era. Who doesnt recognize this irish- pop boyband?
Their songs are ear-catchy. And dance-able yet sing- able ahahaha 🤣☺️😉🤪
That's why I love them. Please meet them Westlife ❤
I forgot if I had attend their concert in Jakarta or not.
🤭🤭

My favorite singer in the world!!! Celine Dion
No words I can Say bout her. I just Love her. Her songs. Her albums. Both in English or in France.
Because of her, I learn French languange.
Listen her songs makes me feel energized, stronger and be loved. And lucky me, last Year 2018 I can saw her in her concert at Jakarta. ❤❤ it just like a dream (that came true).

Hey You! Hey Me!

First of, I'd just blog‐walking here. (My own blog)🤣🤭🥰

Yes, try to read all my old-posts in this www.Grinzzie.blogspot.com
It just bring my memories back, thought. Because I am writing in this blog since 2002.. ! Back then, I was in final year of my college. 
And took many quizess of personality, friendship, life and so. 
I think I wrote some poems too. ☺️
..........
Look what I found in the late 2003/Jan/10.🤭🤭🤪
I Think this is from some quiz webs. 

This is ME 
01. I am: a moody one 
02. I love: Someone 
03. I hate: a lier, wimp, mom's babe 
04. I cry: silent b4 me sleep 
05. I fear: all flyin bugs, hospital, Doctor and darkness 
06. I hope: things would be better tomorrow, i could live in happiness 
07. I feel sad: when no1 trusting me, believe me 
08. I feel alone: when no1 wi me (esp. friends) 
09. I kill: everyone who underestimate me, flyin bugs 
10. I talk: to meself, friends, brothers 
11. I listen: most of the time 
12. I break: all the small things 
13. I see: many things 
14. I smell: good 
15. I taste: great 
16. I work: fine.. 
17. I remember: Someone 
18. I hold: my dreams 
19. I sleep: in bed wi lights and radio on 
20. I pray: in my heart 
21. I walk: fast wi either short and long steps 
22. I drive: a car 
23. I read: some book 
24. I burn: nothin 
25. I breathe: (good) the air 
26. I play: fair 
27. I miss: someone 
28. I touch: my computer, radio button 
29. I want: to stay and live aboard wi a great fam in me whole life times 
30. I wish: i lived someplace else 
31. I know: the truth 
32. I said: the truth 
33. I dream: about the happy life wi me fam, man, buddies 
34. I have: marvelous friends 
36. I fall: and i get up 
37. I wait: 4 him and better future 
38. I need: somethin & someone that can make my life ends great-unforgetable 
39. I live: in indonesia *sigh* 
40. I die: ~ 
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This one from 10.jan.2003

... Every night I pray I'll have you here someday 
... I'll count the stars tonight and hope with all my might 
... And when I close my eyes, You'll be right by my side 
... If I could only have one wish 
... You'd be the man who kiss my lips 
... All my only dreams 

... Every waking hour it seems, 
... I only have you in my dreams 
... So every night I'll pray I'll have you here one day 
... If I could have just one request 
... Stay with me boy I confess 
... All my only dreams 

I was lonley 
>I needed someone to see me through 
>And I was at the end of my rope 
>I needed someone to cut me loose 

>And then an angel out of the blue 
>Gave me the sense that i might make it through 
>And somehow I survived with no rhyme or reason 
>And now I know I'll make it through the miracle of you 

I Miss You SO much !! 
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Annnnnnd I forgot to whom I missed! 🤣🤣🤣🤣
But I think the only Man that I had on my mind ( until now) it the one and only.. My J! He still own my heart !!❤

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