I CAN (NOT) BE ENVY!

 I can not be envy, why?

Why I can not be envy? 

Its a sin. In my religion, we can not be envy. 

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I want to buy shoes

I want to have new bags

I want to have new clothes

Just like the others.

Who got their own money.

I want to buy something "expensive" to my children. 

I want to bring them somewhere that "fancy" and become memories.

With my own money. 

I need something that I can be proud of

I want to have something from what I have on my own. 

I feel so shy to ask hubby

I feel bad if I spend some of it for my self. 

Eventho, I have the rights for it. 

And he keeps telling me for it. 

But I always feel envy looking at my friends who got their own. 

They keep saying, I bought with my own.

Sounds happy and satisfy for it.

Most of all, if I buy shoes, 

Buy new bags, 

Order some new clothes,

Where can I wear all of them?

I didnt go for work. 

I stayed at home. 

I only pick-up the children from school. 

or going for grocery. 

Not much time to meet my friends. 

That's why, I keep on these in my heart and tears.

To dreams of it. 

No Envy matters, because I will not using all kind of stuff even I buy it all.