Inside of (my) Room

June 10, 2006
Dear Chris,

First off all ..
Today I had a day.
It was really a day.
I wish I have another day.
It won't be a bad day.

I know exactly what am doin here..
I know for sure what am having here..
I know what kind of scene of life here..
I know what should, would and could do here..

I am having and running this..
But am not in a rush..
Not in hush..
Am not even in gush..

I really take cares my heart
I really keep my mind
I really hold my feeling
I really mend my heart

And then ..
I wish he knows
He knows what he shud do
He knows what he could do
You know what would u do, honey.

Cuz I need you so, Am yours
And you are mine..
There's something about u baby
I wanna hold u tonite. Every time I see u
U can complete my lifeGod shud have an answer
Why I have to feel like this.

So, Is it love tonight..?
When everyone's dreaming..Of a better life
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,seems I could not ask for more. . .

But dear God,
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter'
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
to speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

Even though, I have to feel blue,
while I'm trying to forget the feeling that I miss him
I have to feel green, when the jealousy swells
and I know it won't go away in dreamsthen,
I Feel yellow, when I'm confused inside
A little hazy but mellow when I feel his eyes on me

Owh Dear,
How can I stand with this..
it's sad, so sadit's a sad sad situation
and it's gettin' more and more absurd
what do i do to make you want mewhat i gotta do to be heard
i dont wanna say this is an overbut i dont know what should i keep for this relationship.

One thing and that's for sure,
You really left print in my heart.
And I will keep it forever and ever
We had so many good times, We had that laugh, We had that tears, We had that smile, We shares all the moments, We shares all hugs and kisses..

I'll be missing you,
Without knowing, how much I loved you
Without knowing, how I need you
Without knowing, how much you meant to me..
Without knowing, how I give you all the trust..

Finally, Its hard to say
sorry seems to be the hardest word
Goodbye my dear LoverGoodbye my hope of life
Goodbye my friendGoodbye my mate
Goodbye my dream of all..Let's make the best out of our lives
Je T'aime beaucoup..!
( June 11, 2006 @ 01:04am)