Inside of (my) Room

Dear Chris..
Bro, how are u doin there.. ?
hope u're doin just find there.. I feel didn't much better from last week.
My cough getting worse, and my voice is really turn that sexy ahahah..
Anyway I do miss you and need you here bro..Owh I have so much problems to thinks and to solves. I really hate this. U know me, aite? I dunno y bro.. but I really think that there's so much burden in my shoulder. So much troubles in front of me. Without knowing where shud I talk this to, with whom I shud share this one .. cuz I have no idea, where do u shud start from. I do really need shoulder to cry on now.

No one could really understand me.
No one could really see me
No one could really hold me
No one could really cry for me

Dieu, I dunno why, I always feel alone here..
Likes no one else beside me,
Eventho, I do really realize that I have someone here
I have a few good friends with me
but still, I feel numb
I feel so emptyI feel half alive
Why I always feel like this?
Why I have to feel like this?
Why shud I feel like this?

Dieu, am so sorry if I really annoying you
Am sorry if seems that I didn't feel that grateful
I do feel grateful for what you've done
I don't know what shud I say
All I can do is complainin all the time
Bout my life around.
Owh Dieu, am sorry!!! Pls forgive me [ again].
I just got back from your home, but nowIts all just coming back.
I still feel that emptiness.

Dieu aidez moi.